Tuesday, April 24, 2007

A little of this...a little of that

So, this past Sunday was the last test day of the season. I tested two dances, the Blues and that wonderful Paso. When I got there I found out that out of 46 tests only 6 had passed. Not a good feeling, the evaluators were really hard, even on the little skaters. So, I took my paso and had to do 3 rounds which is really tireing because its so fast, and then I had to do another round by myself, I could barely breath after, but anyways, it didn't go that well so I was prepared to get a retry, but I didn't get my results until after my second dance. So I went out again, and just kinda did it, I wasn't really thinking that much, and it felt good. So, after I took my skates off, and watched a few more skaters, and then found out that I had passed the Blues, but not the Paso, but that was okay, it wasn't that good anyways, it wasn't a good Paso day for me. So, the plan is to take summer school [skating] and then test it again. I was happy that I passed one, especially considering the pass rate, and the fact that it was my first try at the blues and at the level I'm at, you don't usually pass on your first try, which I have for all my tests this year except the Paso, so I am really happy with my progress this year.
Anyways, I got my confirmation email yesterday about my coaching course next weekend. I can't believe I'm actually going to be a coach with in a year or so, I am so pumped. Next week [Tues - Thurs] is also my school band trip to Winnipeg, yes very exciting. So it will be a long week, and a lot of homework. Just to give you a feel I have a Comp. English test on Monday [before I leave], a 1000 word english essay, a 5ish page Chem Paper due, and possibly a math test. I will be happy when I hand it all in.
I can't believe how nice it is outside, I spent alot of time outside on Saturday, and it was so nice. It was my friend Rey's 16th birthday last Friday, and his party was on Saturday. So me and my friends bought him a car...literally. We gave him a box with a key inside and a note that said, go look outside, and on the driveway was a little remote control car. It was so funny, he loved it so all was good.
Well, that is all for now, hope you are having a great week.
God Bless.

Thursday, April 19, 2007


So, I hate coming on here and venting but I just need to say it...so I'm sorry, I don't mean to offend anybody.
So, I had my 18th birthday party last sunday and it was crap. I wasn't even the reason for the party by the end, half the time I was inside because I knew I would burst into tears or scream at somebody if I stayed outside. I hated it, because I felt so selfish, I should just be thankful for what I have. When I was opening presents everyone was talking and nobody even cared what I was doing except for like one person who was sitting beside me, like do you know how worthless you feel when that happens. I just don't know why it is bothering me so much.
This whole week hasn't been much better, I feel okay and then all of a sudden I am blinking back tears, I feel very alone right now, even though I know I'm not. I feel like a failure and it sucks. Like take today for instance, I was at skating practicing with my dance partner and he was explaining something to me and all of a sudden I felt like crying, he wasn't being mean or anything, I don't know what is wrong with me. I feel like just crawling in a hole and staying there forever.
I feel like people expect either extreme greatness or they expect me to fail. I feel torn and confused. I just don't know what to do.
Anyways, I'm sorry for wasting anybodys time who read this, I hope your day is going well.

Friday, April 13, 2007

Stars On Ice

Last night I went to the city to go see Stars On Ice and it was AMAZING!!!! The theme was Double Exposure which was really cool. My favorite numbers were from Jeff Buttle, Miki Ando, Kyoko Ina and John Zimmerman, Kurt Browning and Jamie Sale and David Pelletier, but they were all great!!!
In other news, I landed my axel for the first time on Wednesday. This may not be a big thing for you, but this is the fourth year I am working on my axel, so I was extremely pumped when I landed it on Wednesday. I also learned how to do an A-spin on Tuesday, which was cool. An A-spin is where you spin on one foot grab the foot off the ice, and have your head by your knees, its really hard to explain, but yeah.
I had the pleasure of my first exam of the semester this week. Yes already, it's a three part exam and part one was this week. It was a really weird exam too. It was for consumer, and the project was to start a clothing store. It was really weird for a math exam.
Skating is going well, I'm feeling so much better in skating lately which is a huge relief for me because I really was thinking about quitting so it is so much easier to work hard when you want to be at the rink. Test day is in a week tomorrow, I'm not really that nervous, I've been working hard on my dances, and feel confident with them.
That's all for now, I hope you are all having a great day as you read this, and if you aren't, I hope your day gets better.
God Bless

Sunday, April 08, 2007

My Tunes From A-Z

Avril Lavigne
All-American Rejects, The
Afters, The
Aly & AJ
Brandon Paris Band
Building 429
Blink 182
Billy Talent
Big Daddy Weave
Bethany Dillon
Barlow Girl
Calling, The
Carrie Underwood
Casting Crowns
Chris Daughtry
Chris Rice
Chris Tomlin
Christina Aguilera
Click Five, The
David Crowder Band
East West
Eva Avila
Frey, The
Faith Hill
Gavin DeGraw
Hawk Nelson
Imogen Heap
Jeremy Camp
Joel Houston
John Waller
Katharine McPhee
Katy Fitzgerald
Krystal Meyers
Leann Rimes
Lene Marlin
Lost Prophets
Mark Schultz
Martina McBride
Matthew West
Michael Buble
Melissa O'Neil
My Chemical Romance
Natalie Grant
Natasha Bedingfield
Nelly Furtado
Nicole Nordeman
Out of Eden
Paul Baloche
Rascal Flatts
Relient K
Seventh Day Slumber
Shawn McDonald
Teddy Gieger
Three Days Grace
Vanessa Carlton
Yolanda Adams